Figuring out who you are and who you want to be is a daunting task. At age 20, I feel as though I’m in an awkward phase of knowing who I am, what my strengths are, what I believe in and what I value, but I’m also torn with the idea of who I want to be.
I think people are sometimes under the false assumption that I have my life together and I have my path figured out. To be honest, we’re all figuring out our lives together. None of us know what’s going to happen in the future and nothing in this life is guaranteed–that’s why it’s called the present.
I think lately I’ve been kind of doubting my journey and what I want to pursue. I thought I wanted to go to business school, but now I’m kind of contemplating wanting to go to art school. That’s quite a difference. I know the value in the education I’m receiving right now, and I know the value of specializing in a field I want to pursue. It’s all very troubling and I have no idea where I’ll end up at this point. And that’s okay. Roll with the punches, right?
I think at this point it’s okay to struggle and be okay with it. I’ll figure out where I’m supposed to go and what I’m supposed to do. I know one thing for sure–my goal is to stay inspired and work in a place where I am myself. A place where I am expressive and free. A place where I am raw–flaws and all. And a place where I can collect myself to be the best version of myself, even when I don’t know what direction I’m headed in.
This blog is supposed to serve as a way for me to follow my passions and dream big dreams. It was never intended to paint a picture of a perfect life, but instead to paint a picture of my life–insecurities and all.
I know I’ll get there–wherever “there” may be.
xoxo
Mattea
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